ne dekuji!

i doooon't want to go home yet....

as i enter the last leg of this awesome semester...i find myself not wanting to leave this dream world, this surreal life that i'm living.

don't get me wrong.

i can't wait to get back to see my family..to return to nyuand see my family at school..to get back into the crazy lifestyle that is new york city....but still...

::cue that dirty dancing..i've had the time of my life song::

b/c it's true...i'm having too much fun in europe...from this summer..and this fall ..i've gained yet another new family....

shit's great.

it'll be weird having to go back to responsibility and stress..and not going out every night..or being able to see different countries every weekend.  ::sigh::

oh well... a better entry will come later...with pics of course....hopefully.. 

almost to the point of begging. . .

this page is dead..

i really don't care to update right now..it's just been too long.  maybe i'll revive my page in a few months...

however.  i do see it as a useful tool to let it be known that...

i need a job.  desperately. 

the summer and fall semesters abroad have completely depleted my savings and have put me at the mercy of my parents finances. 

anyhoo...if anyone knows of any positions opening in the city for the spring semester and beyond..please let me know..thanks and i hope all is well with everyone!

ok. so it's confirmed.

italian people are beautiful.  and always happy. because they freaking live in such an amazing country with delicious food and a captivating culture.

it just sucks that i have to pay per minute to feed my internet addiction for now...

so my sibs are here for one more day..then my parents and i will be off to austria for a bit..

then back to florence...for the start of classes.  WHoOo hooo.

ok. a much better update when i have free internet.

hope everyone's well.  taaaake care of ur wonderful selves.  

<3

simply. amazing.

EDIT::: mar reminded me i forgot to include pics of my SPECTACULAR surprise birthday party....so..some are there...down there....

wow. so i definitely haven't written in this xanga in a while.  life has been nonstop since forever and there's really no other way i would have liked it. 

so i'm waiting to take my last final on tuesday...and ya i still haven't studied for it..but i will...later..or something.

but can i just say...that my sophomore year was probably THE best year of my life? it is beyond words how much fun i've had, how hard i worked, how unbelievable it was with all the new friendships i made and the old ones i strengthened...and how many memories i will take with me from this school year. 

yes, so my life was defined by running from work to class to rehearsal to another rehearsal and sometimes..another rehearsal..all in one day..for me to go home late..do my work..and try to sleep a little before i did it all over again...

i sacrificed seeing my family and a lot of my friends back home...i was always lacking sleep..and at times, i felt like i was compromising my sanity. . .but...i survived...and what an amazing feeling it is to know that what didn't kill me this year..made me stronger and changed me as a person. 

i really pushed myself.  i did things i really didnt't think i could.  i took on more hours at work.  i sang in front of an audience.  i modeled in freaking lingerie. wtf. no no but beyond those rather superficial things..i really learned a lot about myself.  how much i could handle..how a lot of who i was last year and the things i did really didn't define me..thus made me want to change...i really embraced my independence this year...and luckily this newfound confidence in myself came at the right time...i really think i can go away for a few months by myself and be ok. . .i think i'm ready to throw myself into new worlds of unfamiliarity and just take it all in. 

so. as i await my (hopefully good) grades to be posted on blackboard...let's recap...

1st Semester:

sophomore pregame before 46grand.

one of my first performances with MoSHN.  at Emerald City in Philly.

drunk and VIP. with belly buttons.

Mr. Philippines Pageant.  yay for me and mar.  the best stage managers ever. <3

halloween oh five.  oh. boy.

sophomore dinner at Dragonfly.  = )

sophomore/freshmen outing to hooters and madness at water.  drunken underclassmen=success.

FIND 2005.  amazing road trip with my family.  i'd only want to get arrested in a confederate state with you all. 

visiting my high school sweethearts at RU.  <333

sexy sophs at Vapor for Isa's and ML's 20th.

Pulse Dance Project Party. 

Second Semester:

Roomie's Birthday

jose love-making and heartbreaking with chrissy. 

our V-Day Surprise for the boys. MANentine's Day.  <333

MoSHN..second place at Flash.  whooo hoO

Pulse Dance Project.  "Sounds of the City"  awesome.

bugging out at kimmel during late night dance practices.  ya. we're in windows dude.

Battle of the Barrios.  Second place overall.  EXTREME.

spring. break '06.  bahamas.  bananas!  mwahah

rooomie love. 

EXPO Fashion Show.  so hot. .

PCN 2k6. Balik Puso: A Return to the Heart.  EXTREMELY FABULOUS.

<333

mar, cheryl, chrissy, and mica threw me a surprise cocktail party...for my 20th birthday.  they FOOLED me!  i thought we were just going to go to dinner..us 5...dressed in black in white..but instead..they threw me a bash..and everyone there wore black and white too.  oboy.  it was so sweet. i cried so many (drunken yet genuine) tears of happiness...thanks x infinity....

RutgersFest 06 with my loves.

end of the semester debauchery with my favorite people in the world...ok. so i basically posed with each one of them..ahahah if they have a picture or not up there...i love allll of the seniorsssss...they shall forever have a piece of my heart.  hooray.  goodlucKems my loves...

wow.  so. next on the agenda.....

1.study in Florence for the summer.

2. come home and recuperate.

3. study in Prague in the fall.

craziness man.

so. ya. that's a pretty big update i believe.  life is wonderful and i have god to thank for that...  i really am one lucky girl..i'm happy..healthy.. i am surrounded by genuine people and a loving family...and seriously..there's no room for me to complain. . so if i ever do.. tell me to please shut the hell up. . .

sorry if i make u sick. . i am just freaking loving life right now. 

let's do this.